Living in the worlds of my imagination...

dreams-of-japan: 文武廟 by kla+ on Flickr.

Sun, 20 Jan 2013 12:37:52 -0500

文武廟 by kla+ on Flickr.

When bad things happen...

Wed, 07 Nov 2012 22:52:14 -0500

They seem to happen all at once. It’s crazy… I don’t even know how to explain to my teachers the endless amount of drama thats been happening to me lately… I just need to survive 3 weeks!! JUST 3!!! And then I am done with my undergrad career and can start real life. 3 weeks seems likes SUCH a LONG time when I think of how much I have been through in the last 3 weeks. My grandma’s mind is worse than ever and I find myself just praying for patience, compassion, and understanding. I’m sick >.< fever on day 3 of illness, just when I thought I was getting better so soon… And then of course the jerk who has slashed our tires twice for no reason I cant think of besides misplaced aggression on my family… Sometimes I feel like I just want to paste a big note for him outside my house:

Dear Tire-Slasher Jerk,

My life is bad enough without you. I suffer daily on a mental level you will never understand… Please leave my family alone…

Sincerely,

a poor, sick, college student/alzheimer’s caregiver…

Something along those lines… And still, I am thankful. I am thankful for our safety and everything we have. I am thankful that we have been blessed with so much that we can handle all the crap that we have to deal with even if it’s not easy.

Gosh he looks amazing like this… I can’t wait!!

Wed, 07 Nov 2012 22:38:48 -0500

Gosh he looks amazing like this… I can’t wait!!

electric-liquid: Ongoing Mexico Revolution - Ignored by the...

Sun, 12 Aug 2012 19:58:52 -0400

electric-liquid:

Ongoing Mexico Revolution - Ignored by the Media

Mexico, July 11, 2012. The largest protest in human history. USA and UK governments pushed the press not to publish. Google censored videos on youtube and restricted keywords on this event.

The Mexican media has blacking out the protests against their new government, who have been accused of doing everything from buying votes to buying off the media.

If the corporate media won’t spread this story, then let’s spread the story. Share this all over your pages and your friend’s pages and help support the democracy movement in Mexico.

Coolest moment in China

Mon, 23 Jul 2012 15:59:53 -0400

I was holding a conversation class with ten kids after their day was over and I was done teaching and I met a kid named Luffy after the One Piece character. Anyway, he tells me he plays the Erhu, and I mentioned it was my favorite instrument because I LOVE the sound. Well a few kids had mentioned they play but they don’t like it. He came up to me after and mentioned that he wanted to bring it to play me a traditional Chinese song. I said I would love that. Well the following week he brings it and he plays for me. I think I almost cried. Never had I thought that one of my students would bring his erhu and play for me my favorite instrument. It was my first time hearing it live and played for me. It was one of the most touching moments I had in China. He played with such skill! I love history and traditional things so hearing him play the traditional song on it was just moving. He also played something a little sad and it was just beautiful. I was so touched. Really, it was the coolest moment for me. There were a lot of amazing and surreal feelings in China but this was just so beautiful. I will treasure that moment forever.

Pottermore Sorting

Wed, 06 Jun 2012 02:40:29 -0400

OMG… So a friend reminded me the other day that Pottermore was open to the public now and so being a Potterhead I went and decided to get myself sorted. I was a bit nervous because you can only be sorted once (unless you make a million profiles), but anyway so I’m going through it and I get to sorting… I was pretty sure if it was accurate I would get into Gryffindor. So I answer my questions and BAM!

The freakin hat puts me in Slytherin!!! ME?!?! IN SLYTHERIN?!?! This is absurd… I like Slytherin, but EVERYONE knows I am a Gryffindor… I am not ambitious, and while I can be cunning I’m usually more brave and upfront . I am the kind of person that stands up for what’s right and just. I’m an overly nice person to most people unless they are doing things I don’t approve of. So how and why I ended up in Slytherin is beyond me…

To make it worst, my sister got into Gryffindor!! And she’s a more Slytherin person! I can see why she got in because deep deep deep down behind her cold and uninterested exterior is a kind heart under black paint, and she does what’s right (like everything she does for my mom), but she’s more sly and she’s cunning, and she enjoys revenge. She is smart and sarcastic and likes to make fun of people she doesn’t like in intelligent ways so they don’t realize they are being made fun of… She’s secretive and she always takes a silent approach to things.

She agrees the hat mixed us up… She thinks I am too upfront and too nice for Slytherin because I’m always trying to make people better. And that she’s too secretive and uncaring for Gryffindor, because she prefers to take the cunning approach. -le sigh- Stupid hat… I am forever a Slytherin now, and my sister is having an identity crisis lol… not really, but she likes to say so.

At least I get to brag about Snape… He always was my favorite :) Trusted in Snape always <3

Teaching in China

Wed, 06 Jun 2012 02:01:36 -0400

So my orientation for teaching in China is coming up and I leave at the end of this month. I’ll be heading to Jinhua just south of Shanghai. I feel really nervous about it but I know it’s going to fly by once I’m there. I really am very excited to see what this trip has in store and to see a new country. I saw someone wearing a traditional Chinese style shirt today when I walked out of my final for social psych and it made me think of my trip. I really hope I get to see some cool cultural stuff.

On a side note… Completed my Stats for Social Sciences class final and my social psych final… Only one left to go… A presentation final for program evaluation. Then it’s one month in China and two months of freedom!! :D

danjang: Hey guys! So…I admit that the BIGBANG prizes have been...

Wed, 06 Jun 2012 01:41:38 -0400

danjang:

Hey guys!

So…I admit that the BIGBANG prizes have been just sitting on my desk (and could DEFINITELY use a better home)..I figured that I would like to give it away to one of you guys.

They’re in great condition, and they haven’t been opened yet (besides the postcard set).

I won’t be giving away the autographed CD, mostly because the casing is beginning to rust and also the fact that I really like it…so sorry :(

I’m not kidding about this, this is the real deal, so I have to lay down some rules.

You must:

1) Reblog this post
2) Be subscribed to my YouTube channel: (www.youtube.com/metalsides). Make sure you have a YouTube account so I can search for your subscription notification in my email.
3) Live in the USA (so I can ship it to you)

Again, I really REALLY REALLY appreciated winning these prizes but they need a new home. So I am passing it on to you.

What is in the box:

STILL ALIVE TShirt (L only), Glow in the dark bandana (vandana?), sticker set, postcard set (2x), 5 BIGBANG Paper Dolls.

The giveaway ends June 23rd. Winner will be picked randomly. Any questions can be left in the ask box.

I love this cat <3 <3 <3

Mon, 30 Apr 2012 19:51:35 -0400

I love this cat <3 <3 <3

Teach in China

Mon, 30 Apr 2012 19:50:15 -0400

Applied to teach English in China for a month this summer. Hopefully I’ll get it. Never been to Asia so it would be pretty awesome. Of course this means I needed to make sure I had all the required shots and immunities. Went in to get my blood drawn to check if I still had my immunities for Hepatitis A & B. I have no problem getting blood drawn but I have the WORST luck with phlebotomists at Kaiser… They collapsed part of my vein on my right arm and left me a six inch bruise once so I always give them the left arm now. This idiot goes in, hits a nerve… Seriously? Isn’t this your job? Shouldn’t you be good at it by now? I had pain in my arm throbbing from my shoulder to my wrist all day. Then I get I nice big bright blue bruise that is only now healing 1 1/2 weeks later…

Then I had to get a Typhoid shot from a nurse. The lady checking me in was baffled that they still gave that shot. I told her that they didn’t, I had to order it for my trip. She then asked if it was going to be scary cause I was so young. I smiled and told her I was 25. Floored her - she thought I was 18. :) Anyway, I had to get it on my left arm (the same bruised one) because I know shots leave you sore and I need my right…. but I seriously felt like someone had hit my shoulder with a bus or something. Trying to sleep was a nightmare because even leaning on it was hell. Luckily that one stopped hurting pretty fast (2 days). They say the HPV one is bad… It felt better than this one… So anyway, now I hope I get in. Second down payment for the tour part of the trip is due in a few days… exciting!

vermilion-oblivions: literally me

Thu, 22 Mar 2012 00:33:01 -0400

vermilion-oblivions:

literally me

allthingseurope: Lourdes, France (by pninaN) So...

Wed, 14 Mar 2012 18:38:00 -0400

allthingseurope:

Lourdes, France (by pninaN)

So beautiful… <3

Caregiver Chronicles Pt. 3

Wed, 14 Mar 2012 05:10:53 -0400

So my grandma is becoming more aggressive with her Alzheimers and since the last time she escaped her house she’s been at my house EVERY DAY after leaving her adult day care. It hasn’t been easy because her older sister lives here and together they are just trouble. One instigates and the other one freaks out. Luckily my house is gated like a prison so when my grandma demands to be let out to “walk home” she can’t get out even if she tries. Not only is it not easy but it’s just sad that she doesn’t live here where people care about her. As difficult as it is, I prefer her here than at her other daughter’s house because everyone just looks at her like they hate her where she lives and it breaks my heart… I dont think anything makes me feel sadder.

That being said, I’ve gotten so sick of that family that I have distanced myself from them. I know cut-off isn’t healthy but I just cant be around them for my own sanity if I don’t want to rage at them. With that went my cousin who was a really good friend to me though… She turned to her bad friends to make herself feel better, instead of listening to reason, and I just didn’t like the person she was becoming. All of this just gets worst with the fact that I don’t really have friends anymore. My best friend is in Chicago in Medical School and I’m here, with no job, full-time school and no money. I rarely have time for friends and I’m watching my life pass away from the inside of my home.

That said. I started writing again now that my quarter is ending. It’s been a tough one… Theories of Learning kicked my butt but hopefully I will still manage a passing grade. On the other hand, read Rogers’ On Becoming a Person and it was eye opening for me. I thought repeatedly that Rogerian therapy was not for me but actually reading his writing changed my mind. I would really like to try and implement his theories to the way I handle people on a day to day basis. Maybe then I’ll learn not to be so angry with people…

allthingseurope: Zermatt, Switzerland (by oobwoodman)

Wed, 07 Mar 2012 14:34:03 -0500

allthingseurope:

Zermatt, Switzerland (by oobwoodman)

Worst possible time to have writer’s block… Writing is my defense mechanism to try and...

Sat, 11 Feb 2012 04:08:18 -0500

Worst possible time to have writer’s block… Writing is my defense mechanism to try and keep my sanity in my messy, stressful life. No writing for a week = nervous breakdown. It was ugly. Everything just piled on extra thick this week and I was working so hard at being patient and happy… and then I crashed HARD. School is building up to be too much work. Why do professors think their class is the only one you have? And at the same time my great aunt and grandma are getting worse with their memories so there are issues to handle daily. My relationship is really being tested in the middle of all this mess and when there are problems there I have no where to escape this box called “my life”. I wasn’t meant to be caged like this, and even though it is voluntary to help people around me I feel so defeated right now. Don’t mean to whine… just need to let it out somewhere…

Photo

Sat, 11 Feb 2012 02:58:53 -0500

youranonnews: In protest of ACTA, Polish Parliament members...

Sat, 28 Jan 2012 12:36:00 -0500

youranonnews:

In protest of ACTA, Polish Parliament members wear Anonymous Guy Fawkes masks in chambers on 26 January 2012. ps: this is what winning looks like…

allthingseurope: Azay-Le-Rideau, France (by Anto57 -)

Wed, 25 Jan 2012 15:33:03 -0500

allthingseurope:

Azay-Le-Rideau, France

(by Anto57 -)

Photo

Thu, 19 Jan 2012 22:57:00 -0500

New Story and Shakespeare

Thu, 19 Jan 2012 03:43:47 -0500

On a side note, the only outlet I have when I’m at home is to write my new story and it is proving to be challenging but I think I do it on purpose to push myself and also in a way to force myself to be more absorbed to escape my life. Fantasy defense mechanism at work here. I’ve also taken to reading Shakespeare’s sonnets but sometime I wish I had a book cause I hate looking them up online, and when I went to Barnes and Nobles they didn’t have them in a book. They had all his plays but no sonnets in a book. What is up with that?! Needless to say I will be finding one online and buying it from somewhere. 116 and 91 are still my favorites.